I'm really having a hard time with a lot of things lately.

Last night I had a dream that I went to an amusement park with a bunch of people. My Mom, Dad, Molly, Jamie were all there. Matt, Akshay, Matt's Dad were there. David, his Mom, Sean, and Seans girlfriend were there. My grandma was there too. I didn't have a phone so I couldn't get ahold of anyone and I remember just getting upset with everyone and bawling my eyes out. I remember being in a gift shop and having David and Sean give me shit for having Matt and his friends be there, calling him names and belittling me. I got a ice cream and ate it by a window inside and sat by my grandma. Two people came to sit by me and I screamed at them and my Grandma told them to go away. I then remember my ice cream melting everywhere and being a lone, not knowing where anyone is. I walked outside and guys with basketballs hit me while I tried to walk by and I grabbed it and threw it far away so they would get pissed. I remember just crying, crying, crying about trying to find everyone. Then I found my Mom, Dad, and Matt's Dad sitting together with Jamie too. I remember thinking how strange it was and it made me uncomfortable but at the same time relieved that they were talking. Then I walked away and saw David, ignored him, and came back and Matt was there with Akshay and someone else I didn't know. He just looked at me with a blank stare and then turned back. I remember being really upset that he would've rather hungout with them then me or attempt to find me while I was lost. No one made any effort and I just cried. No one cared about me crying except my Mom. I hated that dream and the way it made me feel during it and after, when I woke up.